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Bust Out Magazine

Summer 2009

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How to Hear Music

by Ellen Swain Veen


The white-haired man walked on stage like a person intent on catching a train who hasn’t left himself enough time to take a relaxed stroll to the station. He enters from the side of the stage, turns left at the piano, takes four strides to the massive black instrument and sits down as he flips his tuxedo tails behind him to drape over the back of the padded performance bench, exactly like the one I have at home.

photo of Ellen Swain Veen

And then he closes his eyes and exhales. He lifts his left hand and puts it in front of his chest and breathes in and out, and I watch his shoulders relax, and he seems unaware of the full house in San Francisco Symphony Hall. I am sitting in the “cheap seats,” the ones above the piano, and I think they are the most valuable ones in the house because I can watch the expressions on his face and the way he uses the damper pedal with his right foot as he plays three Beethoven Sonatas, later works by the master, who had lost much of his ability to hear when he composed the pieces, described as interior and moody, and considered unsuitable for performance by some, including famed pianist Vladimir Horowitz.

The hall is still, no coughing, no wrinkling candy wrappers, breath suspended, and he starts, following the sonata from its first measures of a simple melody and into the depth of the piece, richly turning and twisting like a path through a deep forest. And tears are coming out of my eyes as I’m listening, and I look at his shock of white hair and his face, with closed eyes and an expression of a madman who is amid a vision and playing what he hears. And he evokes sounds from the piano I have never heard, and I have played the instrument since I was four years old.

I never understood how Beethoven could have composed as a deaf man. I read the piano music on the page and translate the black notes into movements for my fingers to make a sound that I evaluate as accurate or inaccurate. But when I write a story, I see it inside my head, the characters are people and places that exist somewhere else: I watch them; I listen to them; I tune into their next steps. When I write music I find melodies by messing around on the keyboard. But in listening to Schiff play, I understand how Beethoven must have heard rich melodies in his head, full scores perhaps. And in listening to Schiff, I think he has a front row seat to the same eternal concert that Beethoven himself heard. Schiff completes the three sonatas, and the audience members jump to their feet and call him back for three bows. On the fourth, he sits back in front of the piano and plays J.S. Bach. His countenance changes, he holds his shoulders straighter and coaxes a new set of sounds from the piano, turning the hammered notes into the plucked sounds of the harpsichord, sounds I’ve never heard from a piano, and I think he is a sorcerer returning to some underworld in front of my eyes. He plays his next encore, Mozart, with the giddiness of an accompanist at a dance and confirms my suspicion.

He evokes life from the piano like a child coaxes a genie from a bottle to tell of faraway places one can only travel to on the back of a unicorn. Forgive me, Mr. Horowitz, but you are wrong.

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